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Wow. Top news story on CNN.com. Awesome.

HOW CHRISTIANS SPOIL SEX.

http://religion.blogs.cnn.com/2010/09/03/how-christians-spoil-sex/?hpt=P1&iref=NS1

I am about to say something crazy, at least the sad fact is, most of you think it will be. God created sex, God created orgasms and as a gift He made it feel good. We don’t need orgasms to survive. God said that sex should be in the context of marriage. But that doesn’t mean He didn’t say it was good, to be enjoyed and give to each other, not take. That gave me the word, “Holy Orgasms.” I love saying it because Christians and especially non-Christians think I just said something to get myself smited. They are ready to get hit by the lighting that will soon strike me. I am praying for a Holy Orgasm when I get married. It is kind of funny to say, it makes me laugh because it sounds so weird, off or wrong. But why? What am I afraid of?

Let me explain.

Matthew 7: 7-12

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.’

The Lord is love. Christ loves us. He created sex. Christ isn’t going to make sex outside of marriage blessed and crazy awesome but in it, He will. He doesn’t give us bad stuff. He didn’t create sex for us to feel ashamed. He created it for us to understand sacrifice. He asked us to wait to keep it pure and asked us to wait because it is one of the most unique gifts that we can give.

I actually once spoke to a group of college students (who by their anger, I figured were not Christians, they were not angry at me but another guy, that is how I ended up talking to them, anyways I digress). I asked them to ask me anything. Of course someone shouted out that they love sex! It was to mock me. I smiled and laughed and said, “Awesome! So does God!” That is when I asked them, “If God created sex, he obviously created it to feel good. There are rules yes. I believe it should only be in marriage for a variety of reasons. But did you ever think it could be WAY better then you even imagine. WAY better then porn shows, advertisements show, sitcoms show? (At this point I sounded like a carnival opener for the peep show tent). Ever thought when you are married to ask God to anoint your sex!?” First they freaked out cause I said God, then anoint and then sex all in the same context. i explained anoint just means the Lord blesses it and by His power makes it better, much better. They suddenly felt nervous and worried like, “I don’t want God being there or seeing me!!” That is when usually I ask, “Why? Because if you are afraid maybe that means something else.” Then I went onto explain that when I get married I plan to pray that the Lord gives my wife and I have the most rocking, intimate, hot and heavy, wild sex. For the enjoyment of giving my life over to my wife and vice versa.

I think we don’t know what sex could be or really is. We think it is ours. How can I “GET” some. It is never about getting or taking or needing. It is about giving. Its funny how many people are shocked when I say I am abstinent and have never had intercourse. They don’t know what to do with that. I also think it is funny the ones that look down on abstinence. I usually challenge them, by asking them to try going three months without masturbating or having sex. Try to do it out of honor, discipline and sacrifice for your loved one or future loved one. Then come back to me and tell me what is weaker. So if it is about giving then that makes it much more special to wait and then give it, no one really likes a re-gift.

It is hard. I am not saying it is perfect. I have great Christian friends who have terribly hard sex lives and some who have amazing ones. But in the ones that really speak to me of love are the ones that say, it is hard but I am giving my life over to help her, I am biting the bullet to help her or it is great because she is giving herself to me and I am giving myself to her. I can’t tell you the amount of Christian guys I know that have a healthy idea of sex that is exciting and wonderful and tell me, just wait Cougar, the Lord has a gifted waiting for you and wants to give it to you.

NOW – that isn’t to say once it happens its gone. I heard the most amazing story. A friend of mine told me of this woman they knew who had sex before marriage, became a Christian and married a Christian guy and felt incredible guilt and shame she didn’t “wait.” They prayed before the week of the wedding and asked for forgiveness and that the Lord makes it all new. That wedding night she told this friend was like nothing had ever happened before and she was experiencing something completely new and much better than she could have even dreamed. All that to say, things happened, mistakes are made or even on purpose, divorces happen (and many should!), struggles over take, but that’s the awesome thing, the Lord makes all things new.

Last disclaimer: if you think I am looking down at anyone or you for having/had sex. Then you are reading and know me wrong. If anything I am excited telling you how freakin-crazy awesome this can be. I am not ashamed to say I haven’t screwed up royally in many of those ways and that is why the Lord gave his life over and loves us.

I also need to say that a lot of “Christians” use it as a weapon in marriage and it can still be turned to something wrong and evil. That isn’t right either.

I used to be awkward about the idea of God making sex awesome, praying before hand to make it incredible. But what do I have to be ashamed of? He created it, it would be in marriage AND EVEN IF I did have sex before marriage, He is eager and loving to forgive and STILL make it freakin’ sweet.

So in the end if it came down to God vs. KY Jelly, I would take God.But I am sure He is okay with both.

Short and sweet today.

Since last Saturday my sleep has been incredibly screwed up and I am not entirely sure why. This is how it goes. I typically go to bed between 11:30-12. I then lie in bed, tossing and turning till about 1:30-2am. Then I wake back up at 4:30-5am, unable to go to sleep, tossing and turning until about 6am.

Its frustrating. I would rather get stuff done, read or do something cause I can’t sleep but as soon as I try to get out of my bed, my body is crying out for rest and my eyelids get real heavy.

It may be thinking to much. I was never a, “stare at the ceiling, lying in bed thinking,” type guy. But I am a lie down with my eyes closed brain is going a thousand miles an hour guy. I review scripts, think about books, plot out characters, mull over life’s problems.

So maybe it is either stress, worry or my brain can’t shut off or all of the above. But how in the heck do you shut it off!? I mean how to I stop and rest and say no more.

Maybe I will go right now and get some medical marijuna and try that.

Sometimes how it feels. And I guess I have to put this if I put this on my blog (lame) Courtesy of Universal Studios.

just joking.

HA! YES!

I figured out a sure-fire way to get hits…well. Kind of. It will not work tomorrow. Make up a word and spread it around!! More or less as a joke and interesting idea, I made up a word on Facebook and put it on my status alluding to the fact that I finally figured out what the word meant. So people might be curious to look up the word. Then, someone told me that my blog is literally the only thing that comes up. The reason being is because my Facebook RSS is connected to my blog so it put it on there. All by sheer accident!

SO I will be THE first hit for anytime someone looks up the word:

naurolaus

What is most shocking to me, is how the heck did I come up with a word that doesn’t exist? I mean no name, no product name, no one’s actual name and not in the dictionary. WOW. I HAVE to think of what this word means and then I brought into existence a word. I am deciding this.

naurolaus. noun. a new word or language. “I created a naurolaus all by sheer accident.” noun. a practice made by interesting trial and errors in order to create something new and interesting. noun. new science creations and findings. fictional noun. A Science Fiction sea going vessel in the novel stories, “The Story

and the urban word means.

naurolaus. noun. the language a mountain lion uses.sadly became the technique of flirtation an older woman uses on a younger man. Oh how I loathe how that would become one of the urban dictionary meanings.

wow. this is crazy. I think I need a freakin’ better meaning for it.

I think I’ll visit Sunset Town.

A little quaint fable town.

See the fables and the tales,

Come to life, fairy tales.

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In Sunset Town, where fables come to life, life is strange but anew every day.

No more turbo.

So I do something now that is completely against my character.

I unplug the nintendo turbo controller.

I push the brakes down slowly on the race car.

I pull up the oars in the boat.

And I sit down. (Hopefully on a grassy knoll).

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I just finished reading an article on publishing a children’s book. Somewhat discouraging. They listed categories a writer is and what to do. I am in the category of, “slow down.” I hate that term with a vengeance and yet everyone from mentor to friend says it. I nod and agree but inside I think of the many artists that didn’t do it the way everyone said. So then I ask myself a deeper question, if I don’t do it the way everyone says, then how can I ever make it? Then I realize the deepest question; am I okay failing?

Helix Nebula - universes not explored. What universes are not explored from our minds down to story!?

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Well, today became overwhelming. I was looking at my writing and trying to calm myself into taking time and not worrying.

Can an impossible road be crossed?

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Simple dreams

and simple wishes.

A river somewhere down

I float to find the sun

Between the tree’s shadows.

Hope for no more sinking.

Hope to float.

No more seeing waterfalls.

No more capsized boats.

But will it bring floating on,

Or do the rapids continue?

Rocks and scars, scars and rocks.

Hope to float, hope to float.

I think I turn 27 tomorrow. You think I would know. But that is my brain for you. Vacation was amazing with Nolan. A solid great time with a lot of blessed conversation. Returning to the CO was hard in the essence that my anxiety grows though many blessings abound as well.

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My best friend sent me an email awhile back discussing myself, film and writing. Today, I got an ad about a Denver Executive looking to start a comic franchise and looking for a writer with a story of an alien/sci fi/action dark humor. I was struck with the fact that by the time I got to Brock Media, my office (a 30 minute drive) I had an idea to write and send him. Also three days ago I was in the Erie library picking up a book on the Writer’s Market. A book filled with literary magazine connections. In turn I was going to get two books on comic book writing and creation but decided not. I am not sure what it means. I am not holding my breath being mostly because I have to write the story in time to get it to him. Continue reading